Friday, May 30, 2003
twenty
i am twenty.the "mid" of all ages.i am not young anymore, nor old enough to say i can be overly independent.how's it like to be twenty?so far, im faced with changes that are,well..i guess just right to have come to my age.romantically..morally..ideally, everything came just at the right time.i have no regrets, which i guess is the most important thing.once you allow yourself to be caught up in a situation, you should know how to get out of it..or live by it, i suppose.
you live, you learn.all things in life happen for a reason.at twenty,i believe in these and in God, it/He kept me walking straight on a path that was patterned for me.the questions we have in our life keep us alive, give us a reason to live even more.uncertainties keep our minds working that are to be instilled in us for the rest of our own game,our life. once you find the answers in these questions, you will be a better person for yourself and for others. sometimes, its easier to just take things slow. slow in a sense that you can just rely on all things to take its own course, but in this way, the control is not with you. although, there are certain things that we don't have in control of, i still believe that we make our own life.a close friend often scolds me that i think too much, that i shouldn't do that.i took his words by heart, he's right.i do think too much.these are the times when i don't have control on what's going on my mind, it happens. it really does, but we can't let it take over us.
being twenty,i'm carefully planning my life.what i want to do, what i want to be.the times when i think too much,i use it to my advantage now..thanx to my close friend's words.i live, i learn because all things happen for a reason.planning life at twenty?it happens.
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i am twenty.the "mid" of all ages.i am not young anymore, nor old enough to say i can be overly independent.how's it like to be twenty?so far, im faced with changes that are,well..i guess just right to have come to my age.romantically..morally..ideally, everything came just at the right time.i have no regrets, which i guess is the most important thing.once you allow yourself to be caught up in a situation, you should know how to get out of it..or live by it, i suppose.
you live, you learn.all things in life happen for a reason.at twenty,i believe in these and in God, it/He kept me walking straight on a path that was patterned for me.the questions we have in our life keep us alive, give us a reason to live even more.uncertainties keep our minds working that are to be instilled in us for the rest of our own game,our life. once you find the answers in these questions, you will be a better person for yourself and for others. sometimes, its easier to just take things slow. slow in a sense that you can just rely on all things to take its own course, but in this way, the control is not with you. although, there are certain things that we don't have in control of, i still believe that we make our own life.a close friend often scolds me that i think too much, that i shouldn't do that.i took his words by heart, he's right.i do think too much.these are the times when i don't have control on what's going on my mind, it happens. it really does, but we can't let it take over us.
being twenty,i'm carefully planning my life.what i want to do, what i want to be.the times when i think too much,i use it to my advantage now..thanx to my close friend's words.i live, i learn because all things happen for a reason.planning life at twenty?it happens.
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Wednesday, May 28, 2003
soon
it feels so cold and spacious. i close my eyes, i feel you. your hand holding mine, so close, so real.
i know what to do,i am settled. soon enough i will be free from the trap i let myself be in. right now,i want to get thru it. i want to know how it will be, then i'll be ok. losing you is not a question, it will never be. loving you is given, has always been.
i don't regret everything that's happened.its part of it.nothing came that i didn't like.i had a choice to say no, but i didn't.
i agreed, i love you.i thank you.soon, everything will fall into place..just like before.
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it feels so cold and spacious. i close my eyes, i feel you. your hand holding mine, so close, so real.
i know what to do,i am settled. soon enough i will be free from the trap i let myself be in. right now,i want to get thru it. i want to know how it will be, then i'll be ok. losing you is not a question, it will never be. loving you is given, has always been.
i don't regret everything that's happened.its part of it.nothing came that i didn't like.i had a choice to say no, but i didn't.
i agreed, i love you.i thank you.soon, everything will fall into place..just like before.
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Monday, May 26, 2003
its not everyday that you meet people who understands and accepts you completely, but once you do, you really try your best to hold on to them and make everything as smooth sailing as possible.you try to please them as much as you can, or at least return the favor in undertanding and accepting them as well.it keeps on just fine, but then when reality makes a way to let you experience life, the impact is sudden that sometimes will just leave you stunned and slow you in realizing certain things that is supposed to matter.keeping the connection is good, but i guess having those rough times has its reasons.getting through it will let you realize the important things that will help you get through even more difficult things in the long run.once you surpass a stage that almost choke you,the next step is just a sway away.
its not everyday that you meet people who understands and accepts you completely, but once you do, you really try your best to hold on to them and make everything as smooth sailing as possible...don't overdo the smooth sailing part.a bit of a bumpy ride is as healthy too, but again..never ever overdo it.stability is life.
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its not everyday that you meet people who understands and accepts you completely, but once you do, you really try your best to hold on to them and make everything as smooth sailing as possible...don't overdo the smooth sailing part.a bit of a bumpy ride is as healthy too, but again..never ever overdo it.stability is life.
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Saturday, May 24, 2003
"Stay You"
Wood
I love the way you speak
And I love the way you swear
I love the way you walk around with your head held in the air
I love the way your words move
And I love the way you drive
I love the way you're scared of people scared to be alive
Stay - stay you that's the toughest thing to do (x 2)
I love the way you dress upon a Saturday night
I love the way you never speak until it feels just right
I love the way you're spending all your money on yourself
I love the way you answer the phone and pretend you're somebody else
Stay - stay you that's the toughest thing to do
And now I don't want to talk about the things you overcame
By dragging up the past I'll put you through it all again
I've got the greatest admiration for the way that you got through it
Couldn't ask nobody else to do it better than you do it
Stay - stay you .......
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Wood
I love the way you speak
And I love the way you swear
I love the way you walk around with your head held in the air
I love the way your words move
And I love the way you drive
I love the way you're scared of people scared to be alive
Stay - stay you that's the toughest thing to do (x 2)
I love the way you dress upon a Saturday night
I love the way you never speak until it feels just right
I love the way you're spending all your money on yourself
I love the way you answer the phone and pretend you're somebody else
Stay - stay you that's the toughest thing to do
And now I don't want to talk about the things you overcame
By dragging up the past I'll put you through it all again
I've got the greatest admiration for the way that you got through it
Couldn't ask nobody else to do it better than you do it
Stay - stay you .......
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Wednesday, May 21, 2003
thank you
05212003.mdj
it envelopes
no matter what i do
but i know what lies beneath
every step we take
promises we ought to keep
is what i'm holding on
thank u for staying
its keeping me well
i'll get better soon
yes, i know i will
its because of us
grateful, i really am
i'll be there for you
you'll be there for me
for the rest of our lives
thank you.
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05212003.mdj
it envelopes
no matter what i do
but i know what lies beneath
every step we take
promises we ought to keep
is what i'm holding on
thank u for staying
its keeping me well
i'll get better soon
yes, i know i will
its because of us
grateful, i really am
i'll be there for you
you'll be there for me
for the rest of our lives
thank you.
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Tuesday, May 20, 2003
may19,2003:155am
i juz finished reading "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. This book taught me how to live my life..and i think, it came to me just at the right time-NOW, when im so caught up with changes.The most valuable lesson i got is...NEVER TO BE SELFISH, it will not lead you to anywhere. Giving up your pride doesn't mean losing dignity. Sharing yourself to others is like appreciating God as the supreme of us.
i thank Paola for lending me this book..truly blessings are given at the right time...
here are my fave lines in the book, spoken by Morrie Schwartz:
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."
"Why you think its so important for me hear other people's problems? Dont i have enough pain & suffering of my own?Of course, i do.But giving to other people is what makes me feel alive. When i give my time, when i can make someone smile after they were feeling sad, its as close to healthy as i ever feel."
"Still, there are a few rules i know to be true about love & marriage. If you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you don't know how to compromise, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. And if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. Your values must be alike."
"Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long."
"In business, people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you're too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own."
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i juz finished reading "Tuesdays with Morrie" by Mitch Albom. This book taught me how to live my life..and i think, it came to me just at the right time-NOW, when im so caught up with changes.The most valuable lesson i got is...NEVER TO BE SELFISH, it will not lead you to anywhere. Giving up your pride doesn't mean losing dignity. Sharing yourself to others is like appreciating God as the supreme of us.
i thank Paola for lending me this book..truly blessings are given at the right time...
here are my fave lines in the book, spoken by Morrie Schwartz:
"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."
"Why you think its so important for me hear other people's problems? Dont i have enough pain & suffering of my own?Of course, i do.But giving to other people is what makes me feel alive. When i give my time, when i can make someone smile after they were feeling sad, its as close to healthy as i ever feel."
"Still, there are a few rules i know to be true about love & marriage. If you don't respect the other person, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you don't know how to compromise, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. If you can't talk openly about what goes on between you, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. And if you don't have a common set of values in life, you're gonna have a lot of trouble. Your values must be alike."
"Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long."
"In business, people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you're too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own."
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Thursday, May 15, 2003
you
05142003.mdj
hands held together
the warmth and sanctuary with you
undefinable and distinctive
never to change
a new sense of bliss
definitely rewarding
though so fleeting
no complaints from me
grateful, i am
in all that's come to pass
the love is special
extraordinary and unique
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05142003.mdj
hands held together
the warmth and sanctuary with you
undefinable and distinctive
never to change
a new sense of bliss
definitely rewarding
though so fleeting
no complaints from me
grateful, i am
in all that's come to pass
the love is special
extraordinary and unique
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Wednesday, May 14, 2003
job#2
got my first "paycheck" for my job#1 a week ago.job#2 is running at this moment...
been working for fete since yesterday and i duno why but i do feel pressured about it.don't get me wrong,im not complaining as in i don't like the work,in fact i like what im duin but then i guess im nervous that i might not do things right.after a couple of texting last night with my close friend about it, i realized that i need time to adjust with how things work in the real world.i've had a couple of OJTs in the past, but i have a feeling this one's different.im hands-on with almost everything and im direct with the artists and is trusted with a couple of confidential figures which could greatly affect the whole run.i've always wanted to be part of a big event, and now that it's here...im having mixed emotions about it. its really testing how i can handle pressure and concentration. what a timing this job really is! with everything that's been happening in my personal life..just hope i can get thru this with all the experience i need.changes...changes....
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got my first "paycheck" for my job#1 a week ago.job#2 is running at this moment...
been working for fete since yesterday and i duno why but i do feel pressured about it.don't get me wrong,im not complaining as in i don't like the work,in fact i like what im duin but then i guess im nervous that i might not do things right.after a couple of texting last night with my close friend about it, i realized that i need time to adjust with how things work in the real world.i've had a couple of OJTs in the past, but i have a feeling this one's different.im hands-on with almost everything and im direct with the artists and is trusted with a couple of confidential figures which could greatly affect the whole run.i've always wanted to be part of a big event, and now that it's here...im having mixed emotions about it. its really testing how i can handle pressure and concentration. what a timing this job really is! with everything that's been happening in my personal life..just hope i can get thru this with all the experience i need.changes...changes....
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Tuesday, May 13, 2003
my plans
there have been serious thinking last weekend of what i really want to do for the rest of my life.i was texting with my close friend when i had ideas and somehow, thought about migrating to another country.weird, but i think that's what i need now..a change of environment.i've been living the same old routine for the past 5 years now and i guess im getting tired of it. i need to grow and experience new things.my friends have been keeping my life more interesting, no doubt about that but sometimes, one just needs a transformation that would make himself/herself worth living without throwing away what's been there all the while.at this moment, i have no idea where exactly i want to go, though i told my close friend that i want to live in london. i said that because my tita offered me a place there and i'd also want to feel the life there, but who knows...right?
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there have been serious thinking last weekend of what i really want to do for the rest of my life.i was texting with my close friend when i had ideas and somehow, thought about migrating to another country.weird, but i think that's what i need now..a change of environment.i've been living the same old routine for the past 5 years now and i guess im getting tired of it. i need to grow and experience new things.my friends have been keeping my life more interesting, no doubt about that but sometimes, one just needs a transformation that would make himself/herself worth living without throwing away what's been there all the while.at this moment, i have no idea where exactly i want to go, though i told my close friend that i want to live in london. i said that because my tita offered me a place there and i'd also want to feel the life there, but who knows...right?
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Monday, May 12, 2003
ASHANTI LYRICS
"Happy"
[Ja Rule]
Woo, ha ha right back at ya..
it's the world's most talented record label
Murder Inc.
And that angelic voice you hear in the backround,
oh that's our new princess of Hip Hop in R&B yo
Miss Ashanti.
[Verse 1]
Boy you fill me with so much joy,
you give whatever it is I need
my love here to stay won't ever leave,
so glad that you fell in love with me.
[Bridge]
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you
babe,
couldn't see me without you babe.
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you
babe couldn't see me without you baby.
[Chorus]
all my life I've been searching for you,
everyday. So glad that I found you boy,
all my life I've been feeling for you everyday.
I'm so happy baby.
[Verse 2]
Boy you got me feeling so good,
you take all my pain away from me..
without you around I couldn't be
and I
know you fell in love with me.
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
I'm so happy that I fell in love,
I thank God he sent you from up above.
I'm so happy that I found someone,
and I thank God he sent you from above.
[Chorus x2]
[Ending]
Hmmm that I wouldn't be without you babe
couldn't see me without you babe and I wouldn't be
without you babe couldn't see me without you baby.
ASHANTI LYRICS
"Thank You"
I just wanna say that I'm thanklul to have you in my life,
I wanna say thank you,
I wanna say,
I wanna thank you for being in my life,
I wanna say thank you.
I miss you,
I wish you were here with me saying thank you,
and I love you for being in my life.
I don't know
I don't know,
I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life,
In my life,
I just wanna say thank you,
I love you and I miss you,
I just wanna say thank you,
I love you and I miss you
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"Happy"
[Ja Rule]
Woo, ha ha right back at ya..
it's the world's most talented record label
Murder Inc.
And that angelic voice you hear in the backround,
oh that's our new princess of Hip Hop in R&B yo
Miss Ashanti.
[Verse 1]
Boy you fill me with so much joy,
you give whatever it is I need
my love here to stay won't ever leave,
so glad that you fell in love with me.
[Bridge]
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you
babe,
couldn't see me without you babe.
My love is so good that I wouldn't be without you
babe couldn't see me without you baby.
[Chorus]
all my life I've been searching for you,
everyday. So glad that I found you boy,
all my life I've been feeling for you everyday.
I'm so happy baby.
[Verse 2]
Boy you got me feeling so good,
you take all my pain away from me..
without you around I couldn't be
and I
know you fell in love with me.
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
I'm so happy that I fell in love,
I thank God he sent you from up above.
I'm so happy that I found someone,
and I thank God he sent you from above.
[Chorus x2]
[Ending]
Hmmm that I wouldn't be without you babe
couldn't see me without you babe and I wouldn't be
without you babe couldn't see me without you baby.
ASHANTI LYRICS
"Thank You"
I just wanna say that I'm thanklul to have you in my life,
I wanna say thank you,
I wanna say,
I wanna thank you for being in my life,
I wanna say thank you.
I miss you,
I wish you were here with me saying thank you,
and I love you for being in my life.
I don't know
I don't know,
I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you in my life,
In my life,
I just wanna say thank you,
I love you and I miss you,
I just wanna say thank you,
I love you and I miss you
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Sunday, May 11, 2003
bein settled
at this point, i can say i'm already settled..very settled. i completely understand everything now. i will never have regrets for i have said everything i wanted to say..everything that's inside. it was difficult...very difficult, because there was a sense of importance that i wanted to hold on, but i made it..we both did. im confident that this will lead us to a better sunrise, that will make our days worthwhile. it was a change that we chose to take..it was a change that will make us mutual, in a sense of our individual existence. we are keeping on...holding on...for it is special...extraordinary,unique and undefinable.
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at this point, i can say i'm already settled..very settled. i completely understand everything now. i will never have regrets for i have said everything i wanted to say..everything that's inside. it was difficult...very difficult, because there was a sense of importance that i wanted to hold on, but i made it..we both did. im confident that this will lead us to a better sunrise, that will make our days worthwhile. it was a change that we chose to take..it was a change that will make us mutual, in a sense of our individual existence. we are keeping on...holding on...for it is special...extraordinary,unique and undefinable.
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Sunday, May 04, 2003
lemery, batangas
i woke up remembering my days in lemery, it was just about a month ago. i can say that i had a good start of my summer vacation because of that...
BEYONCE KNOWLES LYRICS
"In Da Club"
[Originally by 50 Cent]
Go shorty, it's Beyonce,
We gon' party like, it's ya birthday,
We gettin' naughty like, it's ya birthday
So put ya drink up in the air if you feel sexy!
I'm the chick with the hot ish, manolo blahnik,
Jimmy choo kicks, killin' it, who you with?
Me & my girls at the party with the diamond zinati's
I'm that classy mami with the Marilyn Monroe body.
I'm that fly chick 5*6 Marc Jacob mini
Ghetto fabolous, glamourous, its effortless
Make up light, we with my pastel luis
Designer scarf, work of art, rockin' vintage Gucci
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
My nails my hair my diamond rings,
Shining with all my fancy things,
My crib my car my clothes my jewels,
Why you mad? Cause I came up and I ain't changed.
I'm that girl wearing chanel pearls,
Chandeliers in my ears from Bailey Bank and Biddle
Ya feelin my style, ya feelin my flow
Hair sheek, smells sweet, like flow to flow?
I'm the lady sipping baileys while I strut like a model
If the ladies wanna hate me I jus send them a bottle
I kno I got it but don't flaunt it even though brothas want it,
Dancin' dirrty while I'm flirtin, 'cause he' checkin' up on me.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
My nails my hair my diamond rings,
Shining with all my fancy things,
My crib my car my clothes my jewels,
Why you mad? Cause I came up and I ain't changed, ohhh
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh!
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh.
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh!
ohhh, ohhhoooooooooooooooooooooowww!! (into hook)
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
[ www.azlyrics.com ]
vic: thanx for bein a great host...sa uulitin!
mon: thanx for sharin with me your sentiments...and teachin us to beer BoNg!
rain: your tan was the best..hahah!its the beer!
zee: thanx for bein our baby in the trip...the most BoG of all!ilabyu!
bart: despidida,huh? thanx for always putting a smile in us...
bing: bonding sesh...thanx so much, bingbing!
hatch: the food was very very sarap...may future ka talaga!!
thank you so much for all the mems we've shared, guys...ilabyu all....
next stop...PUERTO GALERA...2 more nights to go!! wooohoooo!!!!
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i woke up remembering my days in lemery, it was just about a month ago. i can say that i had a good start of my summer vacation because of that...
BEYONCE KNOWLES LYRICS
"In Da Club"
[Originally by 50 Cent]
Go shorty, it's Beyonce,
We gon' party like, it's ya birthday,
We gettin' naughty like, it's ya birthday
So put ya drink up in the air if you feel sexy!
I'm the chick with the hot ish, manolo blahnik,
Jimmy choo kicks, killin' it, who you with?
Me & my girls at the party with the diamond zinati's
I'm that classy mami with the Marilyn Monroe body.
I'm that fly chick 5*6 Marc Jacob mini
Ghetto fabolous, glamourous, its effortless
Make up light, we with my pastel luis
Designer scarf, work of art, rockin' vintage Gucci
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
My nails my hair my diamond rings,
Shining with all my fancy things,
My crib my car my clothes my jewels,
Why you mad? Cause I came up and I ain't changed.
I'm that girl wearing chanel pearls,
Chandeliers in my ears from Bailey Bank and Biddle
Ya feelin my style, ya feelin my flow
Hair sheek, smells sweet, like flow to flow?
I'm the lady sipping baileys while I strut like a model
If the ladies wanna hate me I jus send them a bottle
I kno I got it but don't flaunt it even though brothas want it,
Dancin' dirrty while I'm flirtin, 'cause he' checkin' up on me.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
My nails my hair my diamond rings,
Shining with all my fancy things,
My crib my car my clothes my jewels,
Why you mad? Cause I came up and I ain't changed, ohhh
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh!
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh.
ohhh, ohhh ohhh, ohhh!
ohhh, ohhhoooooooooooooooooooooowww!! (into hook)
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
You can find me in the club, sippin' on some buds,
Daddy I got what you need you's a sexy little thug,
Don't wanna be your girl I ain't lookin for no love,
So come give me a hug, sexy little thug.
[ www.azlyrics.com ]
vic: thanx for bein a great host...sa uulitin!
mon: thanx for sharin with me your sentiments...and teachin us to beer BoNg!
rain: your tan was the best..hahah!its the beer!
zee: thanx for bein our baby in the trip...the most BoG of all!ilabyu!
bart: despidida,huh? thanx for always putting a smile in us...
bing: bonding sesh...thanx so much, bingbing!
hatch: the food was very very sarap...may future ka talaga!!
thank you so much for all the mems we've shared, guys...ilabyu all....
next stop...PUERTO GALERA...2 more nights to go!! wooohoooo!!!!
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Saturday, May 03, 2003
a friend
i had a very sensible conversation with a good friend last night. he helped me realized many things that's been buggin me for the past few days. actually, i never expected to have lasted talking to him for more than an hour..but well, it happened and im glad it did. after listening to my dilemma, he then told me about his Xs and childhood (which was soooo cute..at least for me!). we just made kwento until around midnight. he had to sleep early coz he has a class today. when i put down the phone, i thought of how i saw him before last night..its weird now, but im definite that he is a friend. someone i can make kwento with, someone i can run to for advice...a good friend to me...im happy that he is that someone to me now.
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i had a very sensible conversation with a good friend last night. he helped me realized many things that's been buggin me for the past few days. actually, i never expected to have lasted talking to him for more than an hour..but well, it happened and im glad it did. after listening to my dilemma, he then told me about his Xs and childhood (which was soooo cute..at least for me!). we just made kwento until around midnight. he had to sleep early coz he has a class today. when i put down the phone, i thought of how i saw him before last night..its weird now, but im definite that he is a friend. someone i can make kwento with, someone i can run to for advice...a good friend to me...im happy that he is that someone to me now.
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Friday, May 02, 2003
summer job
before the school ended, i accepted 2 summer jobs. one in april, to be a research assistant to my past prof & another one in may, to be a prod staff to the upcoming event fette de la musique. job#1 was going well, with the help of my brother until the unexpected events happened but then, i think its more of a challenge to me now. im having a really hard time concentrating on my assignments, which i never expected i would be but then im taking it as a test on how strong i can be when time comes and i'll be facing a bigger test. challenge..challenge, this is what these are all, right? job#2 is even harder to deal with, my "boss" kept on cancelling our meeting (to brief me with the event). no problem with that, its giving me an easier time to deal with my other business but im afraid that i will lose my momentum of actually working for that event. later on this afternoon, im supposed to be meeting her in town, let's just see what happens.
i just hope things will fall into place soon...wish me luck!
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before the school ended, i accepted 2 summer jobs. one in april, to be a research assistant to my past prof & another one in may, to be a prod staff to the upcoming event fette de la musique. job#1 was going well, with the help of my brother until the unexpected events happened but then, i think its more of a challenge to me now. im having a really hard time concentrating on my assignments, which i never expected i would be but then im taking it as a test on how strong i can be when time comes and i'll be facing a bigger test. challenge..challenge, this is what these are all, right? job#2 is even harder to deal with, my "boss" kept on cancelling our meeting (to brief me with the event). no problem with that, its giving me an easier time to deal with my other business but im afraid that i will lose my momentum of actually working for that event. later on this afternoon, im supposed to be meeting her in town, let's just see what happens.
i just hope things will fall into place soon...wish me luck!
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Thursday, May 01, 2003
feeling better
the talk that we had a while ago made things easier. i didn't expect you to say such things, but you did. soon, things will get better...as we face this together, i know that we'll live up to what we have said. thank you very,very much and the love i have for you..mere words can't explain.
thank you for understanding things between us.everything i said, everything you said will always remain in us.nomatter where we'll be, we'll never let go of what we have.
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the talk that we had a while ago made things easier. i didn't expect you to say such things, but you did. soon, things will get better...as we face this together, i know that we'll live up to what we have said. thank you very,very much and the love i have for you..mere words can't explain.
thank you for understanding things between us.everything i said, everything you said will always remain in us.nomatter where we'll be, we'll never let go of what we have.
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starting line
and so...here i am, writing in my own blog.i once told a friend that im too private to start my own but then i guess i need this. there are so many changes in my life now and i need an outlet.something that would connect me to the world, in my own private way.
suddenly..there was a change that kept me awake. i know its for the best...but why does loneliness hunts me?i can't sleep, i can't eat.i don't know what is right, all im sure of is..something is wrong. not too long, i know i'll see the sunrise that will lead me to a better day, with all the happiness that's been there all the while...
Dreams /Gabrielle [From Album : Find Your Way /Magnolia Motion Picture Soundtrack]
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe if I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong
Move a step closer
You know that i want you
I can tell by your eyes
That you want me too
Just a question of time
I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine
I want you here forever
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings
'Cos I know they are true
I've seen you sometimes
On your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you
My hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side
And I feel so good
I've nothing to hide
Don't fee; that ui ever could
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you;re here
But I know that you're real
I know whgat I want
And baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings
Because they are true
I'm not making plans for tomorrow
Let's live for tonight
I kknow I want you baby
So hold me so tight
Put your arms around me
You make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear
That you're here to stay
Artist: Hoku
Title: You First Believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
Chorus:
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
but it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
[Chorus]
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star.
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and so...here i am, writing in my own blog.i once told a friend that im too private to start my own but then i guess i need this. there are so many changes in my life now and i need an outlet.something that would connect me to the world, in my own private way.
suddenly..there was a change that kept me awake. i know its for the best...but why does loneliness hunts me?i can't sleep, i can't eat.i don't know what is right, all im sure of is..something is wrong. not too long, i know i'll see the sunrise that will lead me to a better day, with all the happiness that's been there all the while...
Dreams /Gabrielle [From Album : Find Your Way /Magnolia Motion Picture Soundtrack]
Dreams can come true
Look at me babe if I'm with you
You know you gotta have hope
You know you've got to be strong
Move a step closer
You know that i want you
I can tell by your eyes
That you want me too
Just a question of time
I knew we'd be together
And that you'd be mine
I want you here forever
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you're here
But I know that you're real
I know what I want
And baby it's you
I can't deny my feelings
'Cos I know they are true
I've seen you sometimes
On your own and in crowds
I knew I had to have you
My hopes didn't let me down
Now you're by my side
And I feel so good
I've nothing to hide
Don't fee; that ui ever could
Do you hear what I'm saying
Gotta say how I feel
I can't believe you;re here
But I know that you're real
I know whgat I want
And baby it's you
Can't deny my feelings
Because they are true
I'm not making plans for tomorrow
Let's live for tonight
I kknow I want you baby
So hold me so tight
Put your arms around me
You make me feel so safe
Then you whisper in my ear
That you're here to stay
Artist: Hoku
Title: You First Believed
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace
So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget
Chorus:
It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed
There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
but it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart
[Chorus]
How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star.
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