oceanic breeze.

Do YoU ReaLLy kNoW Me?
get 8 correct answers out of 10 questions
to tell if you do c",)

1. what is my favourite shade of blue?
2. who is my ultimate crush in the local movie industry?
3. where was i baptized?
4. when is my birthday(month-date-year)?
5. why do i not trust anyone easily?
6. how do i talk, straight english/straight tagalog/english-tagalog/depends on my mood?
7. which do i believe in, friends before lovers or traditional ligawan ?
8. what university did i originally want to study in?
9. where do i want to work soon/what kind of job do i want to get into(you can choose one or answer both but recognized as one only)?
10. answer in a minimum of 2 sentences, HOW AM I NOW?coping...still depressed...or well/better?

just post ur answers on the comments box and i'll post your scores too.
thanx! c",)
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it was my first time to have seen it.i admit, i was very curious. the place was definitely packed, both guys and girls all eager to shout take it off!take it off!! to every shameless soul on the ledge. i stood behind, watching them put on their show. so..that was how things were done,i thought. not like i was enticed, i was more on...satisfied with my curiosity.i continued consuming my inclusive drinks and dancing with my friends wherever there was space...getting drunk little by little.almost every 10 minutes, there would be a different brave one on the ledge teasing their audience.i began to wonder(yes!even if i wasn't 100% sober that night!), am i actually going back to this place to see it over and over again?
now that i'm not under the influence of Strong Ice(pucha!na-WhaPPaKKK talaga ako!), my answer would be no. i went there to have fun with my friends and we did. we drank and danced the whole time to unwind before stress takes over us this week..and we met our objective. but to go back to watch it again?i don't think so. i don't want to sound so unadulterated (mind you, i can have sex talk with anyone without sounding malicious) but im talking about morals here. morals, in a sense that i won't spend my money to witness such act for a second time. my curiosity was satisfied already, that would be it. i totally believe that i can have fun...dancing the night away and having a couple of drinks with friends again without questioning my principles in life. once is enough.
in life, you live it like its the last day...but there must be limitation.
lahat ng sobra, masama.
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for the past three weeks, i've been spending my weekends in meralco theater for my ojt. i was very hesitant to accept it at first, knowing the venue is very far from where i live but something, somehow...i got myself into it. my co-ojt's and i even got the "Honk! fever" already, we'll be hearing all the songs being played before we sleep, the moment we wake up and even in our dreams!complaints or no complaints, i can say that this activity is therapeutic for me.
i met people whom i know won't just be my "Honk! buddies". i'm slowly building bridges and i'm cautiously opening my mind more (than ever) to the different possibilities my path could lead to. He's put me where i'm supposed to be, and i'm very grateful of it. there'll still be times in the side stage that i would be silent and suddenly, unwanted memories come back but SoMeBoDy taught me to love wisely..be strong and move on. some people comfort me without them knowing it... the hugs i get, the smiles i face, the laughters we all share...it all are helping me to be completely "ok". it still is a long way for me, there are still many roads to cross but i know he, and the rest of the gang are blessings in my life.

hold your head up high...
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Congratulations!! You're a smart sophisticated and
beautiful martini!!


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**b*,

...Its been so, i know
Living life with all these hurts and troubles
Im with your side
Pushing away your tears and sorrows
But you gonna hang on
Together we'll carry on
You've gotta get up and go on

...Come breathe me
Come breathe me

Ive waived to go your way
To keep you away from your own
but you got to be strong, my friend
Baby, keep hanging on
Cause you'll make it through the night
You gonna run the race
Gonna win the fight....

-come breathe me
by 17:28

i duno y, but i remember you on these particular lines in this song.
thanx soo much for ur patience....mwah!.mdj.
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i just received this story through email, it touched me. i'm sure you would be too...

a sad story from the newspaper

A girl and a boy were on a motorcycle, speeding through the night.
They loved each other a lot..
Girl: "slow down a little.. I'm scared.."
Boy: "No, it's so fun.." Girl: "please..it's so scary.."
Boy: "Then say that you love me.."
Girl: "Fine..I love you..can you slow down now?"
Boy: "Give me a big hug.." The girl gave him a big hug.
Girl: "Now can you slow down?"
Boy: "Can you take off my helmet and put it on? It's uncomfortable and its bothering me while i drive."
The next day, there was a story in the newspaper. A motorcycle had crashed into a building because its brakes were broken.There were two people on the motorcycle, of which one died, and the other had survived...... The guy knew that the brakes were broken. He didn't want to let the girl know, because he knew that the girl would have gotten scared. Instead, he was told the last time that she loved him, got a hug from her, put his helmet on her so that she can live, and died himself.

sometimes, you just have to be silent to say "i love you". =(
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"being happy doesn't mean everything's perfect. it just means you've decided to see life beyond the imperfections. so don't say you're happy coz everything's alright. be happy coz things suck but you're doing just fine."

this led me to a new belief in being happy. happiness is a REQUIREMENT in life. without it, you're not human. noone will make you happy but yourself. you need people...friends and family, but you must be able to live on your own self. without accepting who you really are, there will be noone with you. pretending to be somebody else can only worsen you. no matter how things may come your way, be grateful of it. good or bad. happiness will truly be a blessing in your life, He will give it to you when you're ready for it. Faith is all it takes...faith with a whole submission of yourself.
the bad times may discourage your belief but be strong. breakdown if you need to, feel bad all you want but keep in mind that nothing lasts forever...loneliness ends.it still is a blessing.
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we were talking about it last night. she got me, i knew she would. so, it turned out it was possible. but then, i still wasn't convinced! how could it be?i don't know. maybe he's new to me. the attraction is still vague but i'm positive ...only if...i'm ready to take chances again. i am ok. i am better, but something like that again this soon?we'll see...

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a dream
mdj.08122003

here i am
rejuvinated, refreshed
feeling a new in the path
i am in
you woke me up
from a dream i dreamt
so easy, so right.

i knew someone
you led me, uptight
gave a new light
held my hand
i closed my eyes
i felt it again
you breathe my breath.

in a sense
no assurance yet
blissfully i walk on the path
so rocky, so smooth
i take pleasure
you're easy
this is new.

don't leave so soon
but do as you please
i like it, its great
let's keep it real
slowly, randomly
no rush
no harm.
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a friend opened my mind last night...or was it early yesterday mornin'? he was able to make me understand the reality i'm living in and trying to escape from at the same time. it was like being born again, someone guiding your way through a path that you've never been before. he is replacing noone, for i refuse replacements. this is a new life...with new people...on a new story. somehow like a new book, with new characters but with the same author, the One up above all. a PAST may be before but NOW is from a bridge in the past.no matter how bumpy the road was, there are no regrets or whatsoever of the like. like what he said, you dont have to forget him..you have to move on.
thank you....thank you sooo much!!!

somewhere out there
we don't know where
someone will care
they're gonna love yer warts and all
somewhere out there
we can't say where
but someone is gonna fall for you
-"Warts and All"
Honk!The Ugly Duckling
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this is something we should look forward to...

Mars near earth
CLOSE ENCOUNTER WITH MARS
Never again in your (or my) lifetime will the Red Planet be so spectacular
This month the Earth is catching up with Mars, an encounter that will
culminate in the closest approach between the two planets in recorded
history. The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287. Due to the way
Jupiter's gravity tugs on Mars and perturbs its orbit, astronomers can only
be certain that Mars has not come this close to Earth in the last 5,000
years but it may be as long as 60,000 years. The encounter will culminate on
August 27th when Mars comes to within 34,649,589 miles and will be (next to
the moon) the brightest object in the night sky. It will attain a magnitude
of -2.9 and will appear 25.11 arc seconds wide. At a modest 75-power
magnification Mars will look as large as the full moon to he naked eye.

Mars will be easy to spot. At the beginning of August Mars will rise in the
ea st at 10 p.m. and reach its azimuth at about 3 a.m. But by the end of
August when the two planets are closest, Mars will rise at nightfall and
reach its highest point in the sky at 12:30 a.m. That's pretty convenient
when it comes to seeing something that no human has seen in recorded
history.

So, mark your calendar at the beginning of August to see Mars grow
progressively brighter and brighter throughout the month. Share this!
No one alive today will ever see this again.
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Discover the 90/10 Secret:
Understand and apply the 90/10 secret. It will change your life!

What is this secret?

10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean?

We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us.
We cannot stop the car from breaking down.
The plane may be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off.
A driver may cut us off in traffic.
We have no control over this 10%.
The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%!

How? By your reaction.

You cannot control a red light, but you can control your reaction.
Don't let people fool you, YOU can control how you react!

Let's use an example....

You're eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup
of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just
happened. What happens next will be determined by how you react. You curse.
You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the coffee cup over. She
breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and
criticize them for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A
short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back
downstairs you find your daughter has been to busy crying to finish
breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus. Your spouse must
leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to
school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed
limit. After a 15 minute delay and throwing $60..... You look forward to
going home. When you arrive home you find small wedge in your relationship
with your spouse and daughter. Why?

Because of how you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?
B) Did your daughter cause it?
C) Did the Policeman cause it?
D) Did you cause it?

The answer is D.

You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in
those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened:
Coffee splashes over you.
Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say "It's OK honey, you just need
to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After
grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase. You come back down in time look
through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and
waves. You and your spouse kiss before you both go to work. You arrive 5
minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how
good of day you are having.

Notice the difference.

Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different. Why?
Because of how you REACTED. You really do not have any control over 10% of
what happens. The other 90% is determined by your reaction.

Here are some ways to apply the 90/10 secret.

If someone says something negative about you, do not be a sponge. Let the
attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative
comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong
reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed
out, etc.

How do you react if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your
temper? Pound the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel
fall off!) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and
bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the
blue car ruin your drive. Remember the 90-10 principle, and do not worry
about it! You are told! you lost your job. Why lose sleep or get irritated?
It will work out. Use your "worrying" energy and time into finding another
job.

The plane is late. It is going to mangle your schedule for the day.> Why
take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over
what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger,
etc. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

You now know the 90-10 secret.

Apply it and you will be amazed at the results.

"Minds are like parachutes, they function best when open"
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i found myself worried about him when he got off the bus. he wasn't holding any jacket, and the rain was still pouring. i saw him walk under the shed but the shed didn't stretch until his way. i saw him cover his head with his hand, not good. he needed a jacket.
why is it like this?after everything he has done, i still know..i really do know that i can accept him as a friend...if he asks for it. he was a good friend. we'd talk on the phone after a whole day in school...high school days...he never failed to say goodnight before we put down the phone. and we never ran out of stories to tell each other. we had so many good times together..he knew all my crushes, and i knew his. those days...we were really good friends, i miss him...

something happened along the way, and yesterday was all we had....
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it all happened again last night. unexpected, i went thru it like i never did before.

pain, misery and emptiness flooded me but freshness and optimism empowers the surface i'm walking on. no matter how hard it is, i am willing. i don't have to say why. it is transparent why. its different now, its just is.

i met some that filled in the gap. i met some that i'd rather forget at all, but then...along the way it was all worth it. it was never a mistake, it was a passage, it was a path i needed to be able to be a better person.

never have i thought it would make me see things clearly, honestly? it was too blurry. now, its more than clear...it is transparent...it was a blessing.


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