oceanic breeze.

im still at my lola's and i feel bad..sick! my throat hurts and im having asthma attacks. urh!i hate this! i feel so helpless and lantutay! i just hope i'll get better by tomrw coz there are so many things to do for school and work!!!


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I Want You
by Thalia feat. Fat Joe

No one else can ever
No one else can ever
No one else can ever

Yeah, uh
Yeah, uh

What did I
Do to deserve such a man so special in my life
So many days and nights
I get on the go while I sit and wait for mister right
Baby, then came you

Laidback with your sexy smile
When you move your body you just drive me wild
If you’re feeling me, baby, tell me now
Because I want you, I want you

Baby, no one else
Can ever want you like I do
I’m feelin’ love in the deepest fall, give you the
keys and all
You even when helped me when the beef was on

Tell me what you feel
‘Cause I’m feeling something real
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you

Can’t you see
How this love affair would be good for you and me
‘Cause baby, I swear no other man can do
The things that you do when you love me
Oh, baby, you’re my lifetime fantasy

So smooth, love the way you walk
I just love to hear when you talk your talk
So if you’re feeling me, baby, let me know
Because I want you, I want you

Baby, no one else
Can ever want you like I do
I’m feelin’ love in the deepest fall, give you the
keys and all
You even when helped me when the beef was on

Tell me what you feel
‘Cause I’m feeling something real
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you, babe

Slow down, love
Don’t you see me with my girl, what you thinkin’ it
was
I know you’re used to seein’ me in the clubs
Different chicks, sippin’ Cris’, just a million in
dubs
But I’ve changed, only got eyes for her
Believe me, ain’t no girl dividin’ us
We could maybe elope, have a baby and all
‘Cause I don’t wanna be a player no more

Baby, no one else
Can ever want you like I do
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you

Tell me what you feel
‘Cause I’m feeling something real
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you

Baby, no one else
Can ever want you like I do
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you

Tell me what you feel
‘Cause I’m feeling something real
I feel the same way, you make the Don say
Girl, I want you, girl, I need you

Baby...baby...baby...baby...
Baby...baby...baby...baby...


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last night i slept at shine's because i had OJT and went to the SeC Acquaintance Party. we all had fun, just like how we always do in the cubez. the party ended early so we decided(after endless debates!) to relax in Starbucks,Libis. knowing shine, bing and i have to report for the next day's OJT at 9am, the three of us decided to leave earlier than the rest. and today? OJT WAS CANCELLED because of the State of Rebellion proclamation.we all took advantage of the day-off and watched our latest fave series on VCD...yup!we all got kilig!around 4pm, shine dropped us(bing & i) in taft and went our separate ways. and tonight, im not spending the night at home again, im at my lola's coz my dad sent me here for safety(i guess). fortunately, a few minutes ago, the president declared, "makati crisis is over..." but then, it still doesn't guarantee anything...

Where Is The Love
by Black Eyed Peas

"Where Is The Love?"

What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Badness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how a n**** works and operates
N**, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With the ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'
in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love
The love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

by the way, CLASSES ARE CANCELLED TOMRW!!
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TEN THINGS I LIKE
--*working in events
--*chicken croquette,chicken with beer,oreo cheesecake,vanilla frappe
--*staying up late without worrying to wake up the next day
--*waking up early for a trip to the beach
--*spending the whole day in school...without classes! tambay lang!
--*beach attire..on both guys and gurls
--*summer...i LOVE summer!!!!!!!
--*to fall in love..at the right time once again...
--*going to gigs(any kind)
--*finding peace in myself for others

TEN THINGS I HATE
--*commuting in the rain
--*baked cheesecake
--*waking up early for 7am classes
--*seeing Blazers lose a game..i miss JERSEY # 18!!!!!!
--*going home to absorb stress and pressure
--*snakes!! kinikilabutan ako!
--*super tight muscle tee on guys! yak!!
--*lover,epal,pata,new gals in______
--*backstabbers and pretenders
--*needing to leave someone (if only there's another way =( )
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it feels so cold outside, a perfect time for warmth to come naturally.

mesmerized by the idea, new people, new thing

drowning in the memories, though its better now

still wishing you were around, but we needed to be apart.

now, i finally feel different

still undecided, ready or not? still don't know

being older now, being wiser, am i?

hoping it will fall into place soon.

take care, i miss you.
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"u don't have to explain yourself...'di mo na problema kung hindi nila maintindihan yung situation.its not your obligation to make them understand anyway. what's important is you know you're not doing anything wrong and you're at peace with yourself(and with the person involved)." ---THANK you for reminding me, my friend....thanx!!!!

acceptance is a big, big part of life...its just a matter of opening your mind.
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realizations....

changes in our lives are inevitable. it surprises us like rain falls in summer time. i used to be afraid of it, i used to make things stay as how it was before but then, i learned that one should adapt with everything that may come his/her way. it gives us a sense of growth that should be positive in us, and for those around us as well.

everything happens for a reason. yes, it is a fact. sometimes, we don't like how things turn out, sometimes it kills us just to get thru an awful day..but come to think about it, the bad days are rewarding once you get a better one. bad days exist because it reminds us that we're human, that we need someone up there to turn to, and remember that He is the reason for all. He won't give us something we can't handle. i am human, and i do get my "breakdown" moments too, times when i just want to give up but He sends me angels thru my family and friends' comfort.. and brings me back to reality.

nothing lasts forever. it doesn't mean that we should take things for granted..we should treasure each moment and live life with risks taken. a relationship is not guaranteed by loyalty and faith, but you will not know the essence of it until you take the risk. it may not last forever, but at least, you didn't live your life wondering the "what if's".

for the past four months, significant changes happened in my life. i won, i lost, i left, i returned...i changed. from now on, i'd face the days ahead with a better mind and heart because of all the experiences that led me to all the morals i've gained. all that's happened, i'm grateful that it all did. the "breakdowns" that i had, i am thankful i went thru it, it may have been the worst days and nights that i ever had..i really almost gave up but Someone up there and my angels down here pushed me hard to stay human. i guess it has come already...the sunrise i've been waiting for....
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maybe its my fault for not trusting people so easily, that when i do give it and once broken...don't expect it to be regained immediately.
trusting a person is disclosing oneself to another. growing with the other without losing yourself, in a sense, loving another. loving in all ways.
a friendship without trust is not a friendship at all. maybe its my fault for not claiming everyone i meet as my friend. is it bad? am i too arrogant? aloof? this is just how i see life, for life is a big game. there'll be cheaters, winners, losers.
maybe its my fault that in the past, i had been picked on and learned the value of friendship and trust.

maybe its my fault that the ends didn't meet, maybe it was not mine. it will always be a two-way street, moving oppositely but ideally...in synch...ideally.
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Stay
by Lisa Loeb

you say i only hear what i want to.
you say i talk so all the time so.

and i thought what i felt was simple,
and i thought that i don't belong,
and now that i am leaving,
now i know that i did something wrong 'cause i missed you.
yeah, i missed you.

and you say i only hear what i want to:
i don't listen hard,
i don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
or to anyone, anywhere,
i don't understand if you really care,
i'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.

so i turned the radio on, i turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
the lover's in love, and the other's run away,
the lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.

some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
well, this is not that:
i think that i'm throwing, but i'm thrown.

and i thought I'd live forever, but now i'm not so sure.

you try to tell me that i'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.

you said that i was naive,
and i thought that i was strong.
i thought, "hey, i can leave, i can leave."
but now i know that i was wrong, 'cause i missed you.

you said, "i caught you 'cause i want you and one day i'll let you go."
"you try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just scared to lose.
and you say, "stay."

you say i only hear what i want to.


Oficially Missing You
by Tamia

[Verse One]
All I hear is raindrops
Falling on the rooftop
Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel
It wont go away
And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache
I could escape
But I fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today
I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]
Oh can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do
Hey baby say it stays on my mind
And I, I'm officially

[Verse Two]
All I do is lay around
Two ears full tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all
I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say baby safe to say
That I'm officially missing you

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Well I thought I could just get over you baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way
To let go of you

[Chorus]

It official
You know that I'm missing you
Yeah yes
All I hear is raindrops
And I'm officially missing you




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i can't understand how a person affects another in an extraordinary, kilig way. not that i never felt kilig before, but this one's a bit..different. it seems like giving life to the "feels like heaven" phrase. =)

he just leaves you in awe whenever he passes by. your heart beats like there's a drumming session inside, you feel dizzy and your smile just sticks on your face for the next few hours. the moment makes you forget that you were having a bad damn day, and you can picture his smile as you close your eyes. this guy...he does that to me.

i saw him today, after my last class. his hair was a mess, his face was soo oily, but...urh!!i suddenly felt palpitations in my heart..and my guy friends just can't describe my smile. i felt like a high school girl being blown away by the cutest guy in the team. hah! seems very similar with how it is now?? hehehe.

maybe, it was just timing that i was having one of my worst days in my life...owell...
hope i get his jersey this week!!!
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ive learned that giving everything doesn't solve all that's missing. ive learned that patience is really a virtue. ive learned that friends truly can cure pain. ive learned that letting go is a process that takes more than time can heal all wounds. ive learned that a happy song can actually make you cry.ive learned that you can find family in your group of friends. ive learned that reading books by Paulo Coelho can open your mind into the world. ive learned that parents will always be there for you but you have to know what life is on your own.ive learned that not all good friends can become good lovers. ive learned that God makes things fall into place and can take away anything, anytime, but never question the change for there's always a reason.

ive learned that loving, understanding, accepting and forgiving always go together..in that order..and will just go on and on..
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its all new
keeping it real
coming into an age
that all's a change
visions of you
still linger sometimes
but never will it be
that the pain resides

i cant pretend
i cant assume
how it will lead
i know you are safe
happy and well
im trying to be
as well
but its not a breeze

i said never
i said i can
but its sometimes hard
to comprehend
its all in me
the pain i can endure
someday, i know
it'll all come to an end.

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2PAC LYRICS
"Never Call U Bitch Again"
(feat. Tyrese)

[2Pac]
Whassup Boo? Swear I'll never call you bitch again
You ain't fuck with me, hehehe
I swear I'll never call you bitch again
(All I just wanna say is um, if I fuckin apologized)
I swear I'll never call you bitch again
(I ain't mean to call you a bitch)
I'll never call you bitch again

[Verse One: 2Pac]
Damn - gave my homey 90 days for domestic violence
I try to picture myself, in this position but remain silent
I get to thinkin bout this shit, we been through
We close like kin but you remain my friend to
This life of sin, done got the both of us in trouble
But you always stay down for a nigga, so that's why I love you
Reminiscin needin tissues, fightin over childish issues
Swear I can't live witchu but withouchu every day I miss you
When we roll you hold my pistol, my gangsta bitch-ich
You always in the mood for love, that's why I'm sleepin witchu
Though not the man of your dreams, my plan and schemes
To be rich like a king, and live my life, trouble free
I see yesterday I called you names, and played games on yo' mind
I promise that I'll change in time
It's a complicated world, so girl just be a friend
I swear I'll never call you bitch again (and that's my word)

[Chorus: Tyrese + (2Pac)]
We came.. too far..
to throw it all away
(I swear I'll never call you bitch again, believe me)
We came.. way too far pretty baby
to throw it all away, throw it all away
(I swear I'll never call you bitch again, heyyy)

[Verse Two: 2Pac]
I wake up early in the mornin, at the crack of dawn
Nigga still tired so I'm yawnin, and now I'm gone
Tryin to get my money on strong, so an early riser
Out befo' them other guys, that's the way to profit every time
Can't get too close, my enemies, they see ghosts, they envy me
Plus we been beefin with the East coast, with casualites
Got stopped in traffic, had a warrant, so they gaffled me
But while I'm gone, watch my business, and my back for me
My enemies think they got me crossed, they ain't knowin
Ain't no love for player haters where you cowards goin
You paid bail, got me out of jail, home again
I promise not to leave you on your own again
Cristal corks are popped, romantic, thoughts are dropped
It's so frantic but don't panic cause we crossed the top
I found a partner and a rider, a woman and friend
I swear I'll never call you bitch again, believe me

[Chorus]

['Pac speaks over Chorus]
I know, I know
All that is dead though, I'm changed, I'm tellin you..
I know what time it is, gotta give a nigga time
to grow up y'knahmsayin? That was way back then

[Tyrese]
You're my nigga, my best friend
Never gonna call you, a bitch again
Yea yea yea
Ohhhhhhhhhh

[Verse Three: 2Pac]
Witness the evil men do, all this shit I been through
Never meant to hurt you, can we make this work boo?
I know you been feelin pain, things are not the same
"Waitin to Exhale" while I'm sittin in the county jail
Keep yo' head up, cause things are gettin better
My cellmates shed tears off yo' last love letter
Told 'em you would find a friend so keep yo' eyes peeled
Sorry if I cuss but it's the suffering that I feel
Who can I trust and if I bust will she snitch
Even though you ain't the type to trip
Sorry if I called you bitch
You showed me the definition of feminine
The difference between a pack of bitches and black women
I see the boss for the third time, hope to see you soon
Pictures of us kissin in the living room, in the nude
Thanks for bein there, much more than a friend
I swear I'll never call you bitch again, believe me

[Chorus + ad libs - repeat 2X]

[Tyrese ad libs to fade]




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appreciation

i see this sophisticated-modern-like illustrations almost everywhere, it makes me stop and actually appreciate them. i don't know what its called, but its the type that you see painted on the walls of some cafes, or some hip jewelry stores. recently, i discovered an artist named jordi labanda, who does this kind of art. when i was in fully booked(in powerplant), i saw his designs on notebooks. it looks sooo beautiful, that it took me two hours to decide whether to splurge on it and actually choose a design. finally, i went for a design that was close to my personality, the one that was closest to my budget. i still don't know what the notebook is for now, for writing my composed poems? a journal for everyday happenings? i really don't know. it's a collector's item..and its meant to be kept forever. =) im just glad that i have it.

# posted by mari : 10:54 PM

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